cad 3d. akhirnya!

ni memang render tahap tah pape je. tahap nak-cepat-balik-raya. muahaha. yang penting hantar. kalau perasan, pasar ni tak nampak macam pasar langsung. pasal pelik la juga pasar buat bersih-bersih. tapi boleh jadi pasar masa akan datang, hahaa. lepas tu takde interior. lantak le. lagi 3 hari nak raya woi~~ baju raya pun takde lagi haa.

terima kasih pada anis syahirah, bagi pinjam desktop nak render artlantis... lepas tu pada amirah, terima kasih banyak-banyak ajar photoshop. aku terharu sangat dengan korang~ kalau korang takde, tak balik raya kot. tsk tsk tsk.

Project: The Fresh Market Square, Taman Melawati.
Total area: 2500msq.
Software used: Google SketchUp pro 8, Rhinoceros, Grasshopper, Artlantis, Photoshop.

selamat hari raya semua. hati hati bawa kereta bila balik kampung!

the good days.

Last Saturday I went to a reunion. Not really to define as reunion, as reunion usually have all of the big members. It can be said as a small gathering. The gathering held at a restaurant which is located just nearby the Cheras LRT station. It actually took me some time to decide to go there, because deep inside I was very shy. Until Izzaz (one of the admin in my ex-school fb group) tagged my name to ask me for the invitation. Then, after some thought, I decide to go. Why not? What’s the interesting point is, I haven’t met them since I left Sekolah Kebangsaan Yaacob Latiff (2), about thirteen years ago, which is since I am in standard 3. What a long time.

I left SKYL2 because my family moved to Balakong. I have some stories here. When I shifted to Balakong, i have to enroll for a new school. The bad part is, the new school was a very boring and not conducive environment compared to the previous.  And then that was a rebel from me, a very big rebel, which I absent from going to school about three month (in standard 4). I told my parents to send me back to SKYL2. Of course they will not send me there because it is far. Then I left the school and moved to my village at Kluang, Johor. I schooled there, only me, staying with my grandparents, until I finished UPSR.

The point of the story is, I actually love to have friends like at SKYL2. They are not snobbish, not having the spirit of grouping (like assabiyah), because at KL, everyone friend with others equally, not only in a certain circle. Obviously when I tell this, you can state the reason why I rebel. Yeah, because I do not have any good friends. I was so lonely, and feel nobody like to befriend with a new student like me (yeah. and again I have a very low self-esteem. I always feel I am not beautiful and cute as others. people usually make fun some of my attribute. hence no one will like to befriend :P). banyak alasan betul.

I was excited yet sangatlah berdebar-debar to meet them again. But when we met, I do not recognize any of the boys. Only for the girls, and Izzaz (ergh.of course) which I know. The boys changed drastically! (mestilah, it was a few years back.haha). We met by the time to break fast. I think Izzaz were treating all of us for the buka puasa, and all of the food was soooo delicious! I didn’t manage to count the number of people who is coming, just approximately 15 person. I was so shy to talk to them, seriously!

But with the girls, I am okay. Not to feel any shyness. Hahaha. I met Azizah, Wan Hanis, In June and Maizatul Alia. Azizah was my best friend. Even she is not like others, she is the extraordinary genius in my school before! I sit beside her in class. I always envy with her. Once before I left SKYL2 in standard 3, I manage to get the first ranking in my batch. That’s only my one best achievement against her. Hahaha. And then Wan Hanis. At last she told me that she always compete with me to get the higher marks. This I do not remember that much. But Hanis also a clever student that time. She is the daughter of a teacher which also teaches us in that school. Maizatul Alia is not so much different. She is still the quiet and polite girl, and next year she will married with one of our friends too! I don’t know how long they are in relationship, but it is very surprised to hear the person in your primary school, in a same batch will marrying each other! In June also not changed that much. The same face and nature of herself. She is one of the best example of my Chinese friends which do not befriend only in a Chinese group, but she merge with us too. Very friendly.

In a gathering like this, of course the main story are from the reminisced of our past, our good days before. We talk about us, and our friends. We talk about the memorable events. We talk about our silly behavior, our story. And to mention also is about our future (lol.you know what ‘future’ is). Some of us already engaged. And talk about career. About life. J

Hopefully I will meet them again because they are my first childhood friend. And lets hoping that I will talk more with them after this. 

it's my turn to express this.

siapa-siapa yang baca cerita ni, moga didiamkan mulut dan dikeraskan lidah agar cerita ini kekal duduknya dalam entri ini, bukan cerita ini untuk di 'folklore' kan. tak perlu semua itu. kerana cerita ini ceritanya tentang aku. yang tak perlu sesiapapun tahu. dah habis tu apesal kau cerita dalam blog? ikut suka aku lah. dah kat sini je aku boleh luahkan. bukan tanggungjwab kau pun nak luahkan cerita aku kat orang lain. tak payah nak susahkan diri sendiri. btw,
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alah aku lupa. berapa kerat sangatlah yang baca ni. if you want to read, just read and forget. remember, read and forget.

i am overly stressed right now. very the stressed. i don't know about others but to hold everything at your shoulder is too much. maybe you can change the words 'everything' to many things. and the bad thing is all the fault are from you because you did all that. even it is in group work. i can't say much.

aku tak tahulah kalau ada orang dalam dunia ni bila buat kerja dalam kumpulan, dia fikir ke tidak beban ahlinya yang lain tu. seperti aku, aku akan rasa amat bersalah kalau aku tak menyumbang apa-apa sangat. rasa macam dalam kumpulan tu, aku hanya duduk dan buat sedikit-sedikit, dan rasa seronok. rasa dah buat kerja. macam mana ada orang boleh rasa tak bersalah bila buat macam tu?

aku tak tahulah kalau aku terlampau over sangat nak kata benda ni. memang semua orang pun stress dengan this-multidip-thingy. here is the confession. aku rasa tak adil sangat-sangat. semua kerja cad 2d aku buat sorang-sorang dan tak ada seorang pun yang sukarelanya nak bantu aku buat benda tu. ada tujuh benda yang aku buat sorang. which is the site plan (master plan), ground floor plan, mezzanine floor plan, first floor plan, roof plan, section a-a and section b-b and all of the drawing were made from autocad 2d. not 3d. and you have to construct all the lines one by one. by refer the sketch up measurement (which i have to measure it all one by one and transfer it to cad 2d)

yes. those work doesn't requires high speed superb desktop so that's why i offered myself to do this leceh drawings. i do not own any powerful laptop. only a laptop which specs core 2 duo processor, RAM only 2.0 GB and nvidia geforce graphic card. too lame, is it? orang lain semua ada laptop canggih-canggih. paling kurang pun guna i3 ke, i5 ke. if i do not offer myself, i wonder who's gonna do those drawing. because their reason is only one. they do not know using autocad. because they left autocad so many years back then, and they have forgotten. what a stupid reason?!

i do not feel like being bullied or anything. but when comes to the critical time, my work become so much, and i could not rest like the others. (here i talk about only for some people). they can laugh, they can talk with happy voices, and they scream and LOLing every time but i stuck in autocad doing all those specific and detail drawings. you know, even i can't do my other homework just because i struggling do these. again, i do not own any powerful tools like yours. so do not ever again say to me like this, hey...bila kau nak pergi beli desktop? pergilah beli sekarang. kalau ada kan senang.. bla bla bla.... what? you think everyone fortunate to own that? abah kau kaya bolehlah ada desktop baru yang canggih. i screamed in my whole lungs but it doesn't sound. i am tired hearing that. and do not say that AGAIN or i will yell at you. seriously.

then comes to the presentation day. it was so bad (maybe only applicable for me), because the panels do not understand the plans. i do not know why they even do not try to understand the plan. go and look at the sketch up and interior. i try my best to draw a very good plan, but then there are so many staircase and levels, and they cannot understand. i know i do not put the flooring. but that's all. all of the spaces use timber flooring, no different at all.  i have consulted senior. and that's how they draw the plan. i follow the examples. i do it ALONE even though it is quite complicated. this is too much and i can't bear anymore. this morning while eating sahur, i just burst the very frustrating tears. its been quite a long time since the last cry. this is just only my fault. all of from me. because i did all that. and again. i hate doing big big scale plan. it was buruk.

and for the report documentation, i think those work should be done in 2 or three days maximum. i hate when someone drag some of the works to the whole week just for the report. report is not a big thing. just edit from the slideshow from crit 1. i gave to you the work because i see you were so relaxed and do nothing in the office. at first, i was the person who responsible to edit the powerpoint presentation into a report. but i gave to him the works. so, my problem solve. and he got some job to do. but then the report was only done a week after. omg. yesterday i look to the printed report. and i feel so angry inside. tak tahu nak kata macam mana marah tu. the hardcopy A3 report is not successful enough because he do not convert the file to PDF and the arrangement tunggang-langgang. dah la size A3, colour printed. reason; because the QS dept. do not yet put their's to compile the report, and that's why it were like that. berapa puluh ringgit habis print. lepas tu jadi macam tu. memang rasa teruk. as a person who always compile, do the print work and the last editor the report-thingy, i feel sooooo bad. maybe i am too fussy on this, but hey, what you do in a whole week with only compiling report which is actually i have done all in the last slideshow crit 1, and the result was?

even in my group, there is one person who never come show his face while discussion and doing work in the office unless it is presentation and crit day. maybe i can't rant on this because he is not in my department, but still i think he do not deserved to get any grade for this multidip subject. his name is still in my group so i deserve to rant. kan? truthfully i do not even know if he has contribution to the group. he never come and sit with us. yeah. i know you have married. but this study things is not meant for you to left to others and only take care of your pregnant wife and do none things. i even do not know who are you. i just know you have married, and what your name is. if i were the project manager, i will let the lecturer know the true colors of you, and if you come i even cannot see your face, and talk nicely. nasib baik aku bukan PM.

i've learnt so many things in this subject. not only about the subject but the people's too. how to deal with people, how to understand people, how to manage people in the group, especially.

in before say this is bulan puasa, jangan la marah-marah. cuba tahan perasaan tu minta maaflah. tahan perasaan pun ada level dia. aku pun takde lah baik sangat sampai tak boleh nak marah orang. cukuplah.




and.... i rest my case.
sadaqallah hul azimm. habis dah multidip. lega.